burn!

well… i performed a self burn today… a literal self burn… muahahaha yes sheepboy was so proud of me (:

but its starting to hurt now :( and the blister’s swelling up….

owww….

thats the last time i try leaning over the bunsen burner.

why do people never realise…how much someone means to them… until maybe one day they see the possibility of losing that someone…?

*mumble*

mashimoro.

i do not resemble a marshmallow rabbit.

i do not resemble a marshmallow rabbit.

i….do….not…resemble … a . marshmallow. rabbit.

howard tries to pay me a compliment by telling me i look like mashimoro. ok, mashimoro IS cute…

it still is a marshmallow rabbit.

and gordon won’t let up either.

i do not resemble a marshmallow rabbit.

stuff it – not mashimoro. i meant, stuff IT. IT, you know, IT.

whatever.

her thoughts…

and she looks into a shattered world

and thinks to herself

“that used to be me”

what do you want?

what do you choose?

will this ever be the same again?

maybe, i need to see the daylight…

leave behind this half life,

don’t you see i’m breaking down?

lately it seems that everyone’s life is messed up. Chelle’s theory is that when stress levels are high, everyone’s problems surface… and clare guesses it’s sorta true with the BMB midsem coming up that’s worth 15%.

For once, Clare’s content with her life, but everyone else she knows is searching for something… looking for what they think will satisfy them… is Clare satisfied? Close to as can be, she’d think.

A close friend of hers said something along this line :

“just as much as you love being in love, you have to walk the single path alone as well… as much as it hurts, as lonely as it gets, you really get to learn about yourself, you know what you want to achieve for or get.”

and she realised how true that was. last yr and all really made her more comfortable with who she was… in Singapore she used to walk in someone else’s shadow, and never had any time to herself, to try and ‘discover’ or understand what she was looking for. Consequently, she ended up going out with some of the least desirable characters.

What does she want ? All she wants is someone to be there for her,when life gets tough and she wants to shut it out. Someone who will share his life with her, who will laugh with her and someone who will be willing to listen to her problems, and share HIS problems with her…that’s all she wants.

and lately, the crew she’s been with.. the collagens.. they’re evolving. Half are going for the med ball (anthony + tiff), half for the st cats ball (chelle + flik + her + daniel + edmond), and one for no ball (gordon). ok, so maybe it’s 1/4 med ball and 3/4 st cats ball… and there seems to be 3 apple stories evolving WITHIN the group… will they ever ripen? she does not know… all she can do is.. observe and see…

我真的懂 你不是喜新厌旧

是我没有 陪在你身边 当你寂寞时候

别再看着我 说着你爱过 别太伤痛

我不难过 这不算什么

只是为什么眼泪会流 我也不懂

- wo bu nan guo – stephanie sun

* written in 3rd person POV.

Photo Time~

Before I post piccies… thanks Edmond for driving me to Meddent library… ahahaha I was too lazy to walk. Cos my feet had blisters. Cos my shoes were too small ~ ookae.

Lunch at Mathilda Bay

an all too inquisitive swan approaching me… egged on by Allan. ack!!!!

clare in middle, sheep boy above clare, al on clare’s left…

omg… this is such a good photo… it’s like… you know in one of those ads…

chelle n tiffx~

joey of the snowy white complexion … LOL!

tifano and my driver edmond!

tifano and sheep boy…

Pics from NS125 Lab the other day …

hmmm… see right… people were meant to paint the path of the trigeminal /facial nerve on my face… only some people got carried away… a tad too carried away… and Jason decides to take the credit for painting my face… hmmm…

Karaoke and Dim Sum post-Semester 1 Exams

Flik in black and white, clare (i.e. me?) in green… why do I look so diff? ohwell. I want long hair again!!!!

anthony, howie, allan – from left.

howie moving in on mike… hmmm… tut tut…

allan with his smooth moves + voice winning Jason over…!

joey, jason, allan, howard – from left.

mike at ball right after karaoke…

… and last but not least …

and the sheep boy goes baaa baaaaaa~!!!

clare a la technicoloure.

what a full on day.

I just feel like falling on my bed and dying.

where do i start – hmmm i guess my day started with GAAMSS – Grey’s Anatomy Asian Meddent Student Style . Yes, its true. Gordon knows all because of his involvement with the crew, and we both agreed that what we knew could be used as a script to a hit series GAAMSS. watch this space.

I had an 8am start as well again (what’s new?) . After the 8am lecture I practically died so I needed to go to the guild to get a mocha . On the way I was accosted by Jess who threw the MSU ball form at me, and gave me another one of her scary looks and informed me that I was going for the MSU ball. Hmmm.

Then came back to st cats for lunch , and got so pissed off because I spent all my break doing the prelab pictures, and didn’t have time to print off before lab. Sigh. Lab was fun though.! One of the stations involved face painting … in which my face got painted all over ! I’m putting up the picture soon – so you guys can laugh. lol.

And whilst walking around uni, me and *him* met Jess again, who goes “[insert name here] are you going for MSU ball ? Are you asking Clare?!” *lol that was sooooo embarassing!!!!!* *blush*

anyhow back to work.

well so much for staying in today. was meant to me…

well so much for staying in today. was meant to meet friend at subi’s for lunch today but well plans got cancelled.

instead, em’s having a party at her place tonight – lucky girl, just got back from 6 mths in japan and now off to spain in a couple of days… lol. and she was so hurt… cos like i wasn’t expecting her to ring me right… so when she rang i was like, “ummm who?” argh…!! i REALLY wasn’t expecting it… crap =(

anyhow.

can’t go to party tonight as well. cos her place is virtually unfindable. lol. remember getting lost last time at yr 12 befores. and i have to rely on transperth now? ummm…welll…..

ended up going tbussing to subi and walking back with chelle for gelare’s… have a lookat piccies~

.: on the way there :.

OHCWA – my 3rd home ;P

.: there :.

a month of gelare’s cravings satisfied… & no i didn’t have both…

.: on the way back :.

michelle’s range of dream houses… ;P

beauty is found in the smallest things… in the little patch of clouds… in that chip on the sidewalk… in the smiles of your friends… in the eyes of that special loved one…

if u wanna see the rainbow… you have to get thru the rain… (=

labs are evil

doing bmb and physio lab now.

need to finish richard fox asap.

crappp.

hmmm. watched uwa vs ecu bball last night.

i gotta say tiff… james de blonde hair is uber cute.! yes that’s right… we saw a dark blond version of JL last night playing ball… #7 for uwa… of course he’s nowhere near as dark as JL… but he’s definitely cute … ahahahahahahaa gotta start looking tiff!!! for a replacement apple perhaps? anyway. yep good nights sleep, had 9 hours… even though my room was invaded *sniff*sniff*

time to FINISH OFF my labs!

burnt bridges again.

i don`t know.

a once close friend only recently said that we’ve drifted apart. what’s the point in prolonging the wait any further if nothing’s ever going to happen?

and i realise that’s true.

in life , relationships , friendships – nothing`s given to you, u gotta work at it and you gotta aim high, and dream. but you also need to know when enough is enough.

winnie’s apple story -
there was an apple sitting on e table… u’ve stared at it for so long, and you’ve been wanting it … but no one’s given you the permission to take it… so you sit there and hope that maybe someone will come along and let you eat it…

then suddenly, another apple appears… this one is offered to you… what do you do… would you wait for the first apple, or would you take the second apple…. even though it hasn’t been the one you’re waiting for, and you’re not sure whether or not it’s going to be tasty… [and no, no such things as taste tests!] … and say… you take the second apple… and your realised it was also a nice apple, so you liked it, you appreciated it….

but why did you take the second apple? because you liked it from the start? no? because it looked good to you at the start? no… because you’ve been waiting for it – definitely a no… so what’s the answer?? the answer’s simple… you took it just because it was on offer. and you didn’t want to wait for the other one anymore…and it wasn’t bad at the end… but the very first reason of picking it up wasn’t because you had the urge of having it… it didn’t come purely from your heart. you just picked it up, because you know if you didn’t take it… it may never come by again? someone else would take it… and in order to keep it, you must take it…

what should u have done… either leave the 2nd apple for someone wo was attracted to it at first glance… or when you were no longer interested in the first apple anymore… but yes, chances never come around twice… when you picked it up, you shouldn’t have looked back… but you did. that was your mistake, you never treasured the one you chose from the start… that was why when you picked it up, you had it – you stil didn’t really see the value in it. you still didn’t care about it much, cos you thought you had it and it was yours…

this story goes out to every single girl / guy who’s been 2nd choice… who was never the first on their significant other’s mind… love grows… but once broken and hope lost, a heart will never be the same… there will be someone out there for you one day… a soulmate , someone who understands you, who will be willing to love you, to make you laugh, to make you smile. someone who knows you, who can make you happy with more than just materialistic items… who will be someone you can trust will be there for you as you fall… no matter what, trust it this…

i asked God for a flower he gave me a rose
i asked God for a second he gave me a lifetime
i asked God for someone to hold my hand
he gave me an angel …
he gave me you.

stinky shoes

stinky shoes from last CVS physio lab got wet again
stinky shoes didn’t smell so much
clare wore stinky shoes to lab
stinky shoes stunk even more

stinky shoes were washed by clare
stinky shoes are now in dryer
stink shoes better not cause a fire alarm tonight

`nuff said.

ooh, except.

i have cravings for grape flavoured jellybeans. i don’t know why. :(

agony aunt

“A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today.

This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say.

I don’t know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I’d have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you’re wrong? What if you’re making a mistake you can’t undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can’t pretend we hadn’t been told. We’ve all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day.

Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant.

That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying. ” (Luo, M 2005)

beautiful entry don’t u think? every moment’s a gift to us. we only have one life to live, every single second we have on this world should be treasured… like they say, dance like nobody’s watching, sing like nobody’s listening, love like you’ve never been hurt before…

it’s hard. it’s so hard to get past that initial barrier. what if you’re doing something wrong? what if you’re compromising, if you meet that ONE the next day but you’re already with someone else… but then again, what winnie said is true… you’re never gonna know if this is the one… but make the most of today, live today instead of living for tomorrow… cos tomorrow will always be uncertain, but what you have today…. will live on forever…

so many ppl in my life… asking me what they should do… should they even do something… well i can’t butt into your lives… but read the post above… and do think about whether or not it’s worth it… cos to one of my friends… all i can say is dont put off till tomorrow what u can do today.

and to *him*? we’ll see how everything goes… life will run its own course. sometimes all we can do is just follow…