I`m Sorry.

Because I don’t know you anymore -
I don’t recognise this place..
The picture frames have changed
and so has your name..
We don’t talk much anymore…

Friends walk in and out of your life. I didn`t know you would walk out, but that’s the price I have to pay. For being in the course I`m in, for being busy, for trying to juggle too much at a time.

We’ve had good memories -

- do u remember star wars?
- do u remember talking in the playground ?
- do u remember cycling for hours at a go?
- do u remember prince / major ?
- do u remember how u told me it would get better after each jerk ?
- do u remember bubble tea ?
- do u remember pulau ubin ?
- do u remember ?
- do u really ?

All I can say is, I`m sorry. I know it’s pathetic, it’s probably the most overused term in history. But what can I say?

I`m sorry.

It’s only words..and words are all i have… to say i`m sorry. for everything.

While my heart is a shield and I won’t let it down…

While my heart is a shield and I won’t let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won’t even try
Well how can I say I’m alive
- Dido, Life for Rent

I`m no longer afraid of failure..
I`m no longer scared to try…
Will you give up..
Will you hold on with me..
Be my knight in shining armour?
Only time can tell…
my belief in you grows..
day by day

When you lie out there
under the stars
who is it you think of ,
whose face is it that comes to your mind? …

Went to the beach today with the trinity people +…

Went to the beach today with the trinity people + mike and jason. Cott beach is so pretty! I love the white sand – u never ever get such a clean beach in Singapore…! but yes the waves were really strong… like the rip literally pulled me off my feet and I swallowed perhaps a couple gallons of seawater … (not cool) =/ but it`s all cool. I`m still here aren`t I?

Maybe it`s in your eyes
That just pulls me in
I`m falling…falling
Into a place no one`s been before

Maybe it`s your smile
That just draws my heart
To you
Like a rainbow after the rain
I`m lost
Lost in you.

Then – stupidity . I left my shirt too close to the tide (assuming the tide wouldn`t come in). Only it did … oops. There goes the Dunman council shirt … at least I have others. Only thing is that I`m now stranded in bathers and shorts. And of course, it was getting cold. So Jason gallantly lends me his shirt to wear and uses his towel. Only Mike left his shirt so Jason ended up with Mike`s shirt.

And just like your arms
Like your presence surrounds me
Why do I feel like I belong
Why do I feel so safe with you ?

A crossroads once again… Why do all the ways seem to lead to the same thing?

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are, at the crossroads once again
You`re telling me you`re so confused
You can`t make up your mind
Is this meant to be,
You`re asking me?

But only Love can say
Try again or walk away
But I can see,
For you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I`ll just play my part
Pray you`ll have a change of heart
But only Love can see it through -
That`s something only Love can do…

mum`s apt.

ok -

for the last time, i`m in my mum`s apartment. *coughcough* NOT in college.

so stop asking me to come over / go to the city together / etc etc

=Pp roflmao.

anyyway.

yes yes i do plan to get work done. operative word being ‘plan’. mantoux jab this tues and fri… MSU ball this friday as well… and I got a new ball gown for MSU ball.. before realising it`s an extremely hard colour to match.. it`s like orange. hmmm . yes. interesting.

and apparently i don`t have a sore throat so NO i`m not to blame for gordon and howard’s sore throat as well… i have inflammation of the tonsilar lymph tissue =P also known as tonsillitis. haha but with luck it should go down by friday so i can talk properly. ~

ok . back to work .

DMS

arggghhh.

DMS
wire bending
retention

ahhhhhh!!!!!!

i was actually enjoying wire bending the first week… now i know what people mean when they go “oh yeah you really screw up the last 15 mins or so” … cos in the first 10 minutes i managed to produce a beauuutiful RETENTIVE (yeah, RETENTIVE) adam`s crib… and it fit snugly into the interproximal areas and stuff…!!!

then gordy came along and i asked him how to improve it… he was like, “oh yeah that bit where it follows the shape of the tooth seems a little off.” (note : that part was bent by the lab instructor. Never ever EVER trust the lab people with your stuff again – i thought i learnt my lesson after the acrylic tray. Apparently not.) . So I try and adapt it better yeah ?

And in the next few vital seconds, I somehow manage to screw it up completely.

Retention, gone. Basically you just turn the model upside down and the crib falls right off. *starts sobbing* argghhh why me?!?!?!? *sniff*sniff*

And like I managed to make 2
both of which are un-retentive.
*sigh*

DMS presentation ppt to go.. just wanna get this over and done with..

yeah the clasp on the lower 2nd tooth…. (first molar)… that was what i was meant to make. keyword being MEANT TO.

thanks darryl for this morning (: i`ve been liste…

thanks darryl for this morning (:

i`ve been listening to a fair bit of evanescence lately, and this song just hit me hard because yeah i felt this way a few weeks back… i wonder now how come i felt that way… i had friends, family, all i could wish for… but like danlin said… i felt like something was just wrong… but i`m glad that phase past.. cos now… i`m happier than i have been for quite some time (: will it last tho.. only time will tell..

people do stupid things… sometimes things they regret… but u have to learn to live with your choices… a slip and u can lose it all… but no matter what, i`ll be here to listen to u , listen to your troubles, be a support for u, girl. always.

Please, please forgive me,
But I won’t be home again.
Maybe someday you’ll look up,
& barely conscious, you’ll say to no one:
“Isn’t something missing?”

You won’t cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant…?
Am I so insignificant…?
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me?

Even though I’m the sacrifice,
You won’t try for me, not now.
Though I’d die to know you love me,I’m all alone.
Isn’t someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won’t be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
“Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me?”

And if I bleed, I’ll bleed,
Knowing you don’t care.
And if I sleep just to dream of youI’ll
wake without you there,
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t something…

last night…

thanks to everyone for making yesterday such a memorable night

smaller party than i expected but the company was so good (:

thanks to my mummy for organising evverrrryyyy thing
to anthony for being able to come!!! (:
to cheesy for e pressie… i absolutely love it :P
to daniel for coming even tho you were sick
to deepak for e best chocs that ever existed… mmmm…
to edmond for making such a beautiful bday card…
to evan. i think u look cute with gloria . ehehehee
to felicity for helping for practically the WHOLE day
to gordy kor kor for not burning me and asking me for e first dance… & trying to open the tin of fruit punch…
to gloria for attempting to dance with me~
to hanna for offering to bring me go clubbing ;P i`m still too innocent
to howie n ash for looking soooo good together on e dance floor…
to jakey boy for going “clare i wanna meet ur mum!” hahhaa. & stop hitting on kim.
to jason for flowers awww~ n coming even tho u were prolly like 39 degrees…
to jess for dressing in the theme!!! (: -i don`t think anyone else did.sheesh-
to joey for a nite of entertainment. quote-> “e pleasure of ur fine company~”
to kim AHAHAHAH U TOOOOLLLLLLLLL . `nuffx said.
to michelle n winnie for helping with deco / food .
to mike n anne who gave me a HUGGGGEEE poster of orlando bloom to look at before i sleep each night!!!
to sam n darren for the pretty notebook!
to tiffany for wearing heels for me! yay!~
to tim for coming ALLLL the way from southlake. with like 2/3 days notice as well!

food was good and so was dessert (: thx to the DJ as well…

mmmm`

i wished it was a beautiful night for everyone… i can`t say it was … everyone was on extreme high n lows yesterday… but no matter what… memories always last with u… take last night as a night to remember… the good times n the bad… and despite what happens… memories last forever… keep it all in ur heart… take it with u…

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
‘Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

melancholic

my birthday party’s this saturday.

for some reason it still doesn’t feel like i’m 18 yet ..

ok admittedly since i’m legally able to get married i am going to.

for all again,
groom me
bride michelle
flower girl tiffx
best man russell
ring bearer james
wedding singers edmond and gordy
bridesmaid/maid of honor flik n nini
ahbeng (errrrr . bodyguard?) anton
pastor joey
the wedding planner daniel
the objector jason

lolx`

ok enough wiv that.

material science again today – wire bending. how i hate wire bending. argghhhhh . i detest wire bending!

but it wasn`t too bad i guess. sigh. just don`t wanna stuff this up. i`m now on a pass average yay!~ so all i have to do is maintain it… grrr…

sat thru the most boring lectures yet – BMB and NS125 … sigh… sometimes the lecturers seem to ramble on and on … and yeah, *eyeroll* had a mega long break which just flew by… time seems to go by so quickly….

waited all my life to cross this line …
to the only thing that’s true -
so I will not hide,
it`s time to try … anything to be with you …
all my life i`ve waited,
this is true…

top ball pics

some top pics from the stcats ball – hav a look

the rest of the pics are at http://spaces.msn.com/members/clarespace469

me singing… or pretending to anyway =P

“if you marry me, i`ll make you the second most happiest person on earth…”

clare n chelle… e happy couple ;P

~forever?~ =P

a toast to the bride n groom =P

pic of me and my jiejie (:

clare’s already cheating on michelle before the night is over… sigh…kissing her sister too… sighhhh…

clare n flik… toasting ?

flik proposing to clare… omg… who should i choose?

“i don’t know clare, it’s your decision…”

flik and ed… ???

e guys…

daniel and ed carrying… (or attempting to carry) clare

clare n daniel…

errr… wth???

nini and eddie

dessert… exquisite!

last but not least….the guys with chef hats! =P

You are 46.03% jealous!

You are 46.03% jealous!

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